Why I Do What I Do
A few years ago, I found myself on the floor of my tiny apartment in Los Angeles choosing to end my own life. For months I felt horrible. I had chronic fatigue, was overweight, had horrible cystic acne breakouts on my face and back, was fuzzy-headed all day long and even suffered from memory loss.
I couldn’t work because I was so sick and my bank account was resting dangerously on just a few hundred dollars.
The morning I awoke to find lumps in both of my breasts was my breaking point. I just could not go on.
You see, like so many other people, I had tried everything.
I worked with doctors, trainers, and nutritionists. I had massage therapy, reiki therapy, energy-balancing, and was even hypnotized. I worked with crystals, herbal formulas, and did colon cleanses. I took the pills and drank the shakes and nothing helped.
I figured I had given it my best shot and it was time for me to stop trying.
That night, sitting in a dark corner with the lights of Hollywood streaming through my one apartment window, I was utterly hopeless. I felt worthless and defeated.
And, as I started to come to terms with the fact that this was the end, I started to get angry.
I was angry at myself for getting into this place, angry at the people I went to for help that didn’t help me, angry at God.
And I started to ask, “Why me?”
You see, dealing with incredible challenges was nothing new for me.
I grew up in extreme poverty. We had no running water or indoor plumbing, one old wood stove heated our home, and I was often hungry.
My parents did the best they could but they were young and hadn’t exactly had role models for parents themselves. They had suffered the loss of their first child at the age of two and they struggled daily with how to provide for my sister and I.
My home was filled with drug abuse and domestic abuse, and I was sexually abused at a young age.
I experienced loss after loss of loved ones through suicide, car accidents, and other random things that blindside you on a random Tuesday afternoon.
That night in the dark, I felt like I had been fighting my whole life and I was just so tired of fighting.
And I was angry.
As I kept asking “why me”, with tears streaming down my face, I started to understand the answer.
It dawned on me as brightly as the sun coming up in the morning. I realized that everything I had experienced up until that very moment hadn’t happened TO me. It had happened FOR me.
I realized in an instant that I was meant to go through these experiences. I was meant to have this awakening. And in this moment, it was all unfolding just as it was supposed to.
For months, I hadn’t been able to have a clear, concise thought. That night, things were crystal clear.
I knew that I could overcome these health conditions. I knew I was meant to. I knew that after I overcame them I was meant to share my story with others.
You see, in that moment, I realized I was meant for something really great. Coming from someone who had always felt like she wasn’t good enough or smart enough or fill-in-the-blank enough, this was quite a revelation.
Once I felt that my life mattered – that what I had gone through and was currently going through had a purpose – it felt like my insides were going to explode with happiness, light, and love.
I knew my purpose (something I had searched high and low for before) and I knew my life had meaning.
Then, I started thinking about all the other people out there who were struggling just like me.
Who had experienced tragedy and heartbreak, just like me.
Who didn’t feel seen or heard or like they mattered, just like me.
And I knew that THEY were meant for greatness too.
In fact, as you are reading this, please know that YOU are meant for greatness.
The tears that were falling had been transformed. They were no longer tears of defeat and sadness. They were tears of joy. And for the first time in my entire adult life, I felt hope.
So I made a pact with the Universe. I agreed that I would do everything humanly possible to heal my body and my heart if it would be there to lead, guide, and support me. I proceeded with the confidence that The Universe had agreed.
I picked myself up, dried my tears, and headed to my computer.
Thank goodness for Google.
I found a nutrition certification program and emailed them letting them know I wanted to enroll right away. The next morning, I received an email back saying they were closing enrollments that day and that I had emailed just in time. I used three credit cards to sign up but I knew I was investing in me – the only thing left to invest in.
During my studies, I started researching my symptoms and dug into every facet of nutrition. I attended additional schools and training programs where I learned about holistic health, mind shifts, and psychological factors. I tested spiritual practices and looked at how they really brought everything else together in a big way.
And I started implementing what I was learning.
I saw slow results at first but I kept at it. I learned about meditation and herbs. I became aware of food intolerances and weight loss resistance. I learned how to detox and cleanse my body the right way.
I also realized that it wasn’t about the food.
It had never been about the food.
It was about that hunger that I couldn’t satisfy, no matter how much food I ate.
I had to go beyond food and discover what I was really hungry for.
I dug deep.
I uncovered old hurt and beliefs that had kept me stuck and feeling like I wasn’t good enough.
And then the magic started to happen.
The weight fell off as if it had never been there. My skin cleared up, I had lots of energy, and I could remember everything.
The lumps in my breasts turned out to be fibrous (which years later brought me to my knees in gratitude when my mom actually was diagnosed with breast cancer).
My body and heart were healing and it was now time for me to share what I had learned.
I started working with people who were going through similar struggles. I combined science, psychology, and spiritual practices – since I now knew beyond the shadow of a doubt that you need them all for permanent change. And I started to see these people transform.
We began to discover what they were really hungry for.
These people didn’t just lose weight, clear up their skin, and have lots of energy.
They got out of relationships that weren’t serving them. They quit jobs that weren’t letting them live their passion. They remembered who they were and that they were meant for greatness.
I called this method that I had created Transformational Nutrition®. After 15 years of serving others, writing best-selling books, using it with celebrities, and being featured in the media all over the globe, I decided to take it a step further. I wanted others to learn this method so that they could use it to help others who were suffering.
I wrote two bestselling books, The PINK Method and The Hungry Hottie Cookbook. These books reached millions of people but I knew that I was still only one person. I also knew that if I shared what I knew with others, we would become an army for change. For transformation.
So, I founded the Institute of Transformational Nutrition® and it has been my honor and pleasure to see students enrolling, going through their own transformative experience, and then taking that out to share with the world. They are changing the world and living from a place of passion daily.
I now see clearly what the purpose of my journey has been and I am honored every single day to live it.
I’ve had the honor to appear on a variety of shows and in numerous publications including Dr. Phil, The Doctors, The TODAY Show, Marie Claire, Cosmopolitan, Fitness Magazine, E! News, and more.
Today I am living, learning and doing what lights my fire daily with my family in Los Angeles and Portland.
Life is a journey and I take a new step every single day!
If you feel you are ready for a transformation, to help others in their journey, and to step into your greatness, then I invite you to join me.
Let’s discover what YOU are really hungry for!
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Cynthia Pasquella is a celebrity nutritionist, spiritual leader, media personality and best-selling author. She is the founder and director of the Institute of Transformational Nutrition – the only nutrition certification program that combines nutritional science, psychology, spirituality, and coaching skills to people create permanent change in their health and life.
Cynthia is famous for inspiring millions of women to discover what they’re really hungry for so they can finally make peace with food and themselves.
She is the creator and host of What You’re Really Hungry For, a web series that goes beyond food and examines why you know what to do to get healthy but still won’t do it as well as the true secrets behind having the body, health, and life you’ve always wanted.
Cynthia is a nutrition expert for The Doctors, The Dr. Phil Show, and The Today Show and has been featured in popular media outlets such as Access Hollywood, E! News Live, Harper’s Bazaar, Fitness Magazine, Shape Magazine and Marie Claire.
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